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Pissing in the Dark...

...Or Not Such a Good Day.

So here's a funny not-talent; I can go in and out of imaginary worlds. I don't need costumes or props, I can do it on a stage, in front of a camera, on a hill, in a field, in a scout hall. Tell me the story and I can join in; I can actually see it, feel it, be there. Sometimes that's a good thing because I'll give my credence to someone else's reality and breathe life into it. And sometimes I give energy to a dream that's not worth a damn.

Long ago I decided never to use that ability to validate an unworthy game. So why do I do it now? When it's entertaining and my contribution is welcome... or when the dreamer can't leave what they've made, when they can't meet me here.

And this is why I found myself today, in a place where there is no light but we never say that, and no electricity but we don't mention it, and no running water but we don't talk about it; in the utter dark, desperate for the loo only to find myself peeing on the closed toilet lid, urine running everywhere other than where it should, me trying to clean the floor in the dark, unable to find the mop, the paper, the water, the lavender cologne,the fifty shades of industrial-strength-don't-get-this-on-your-hands disinfectant, just unable to do anything except want to scream:

'GET YOUR FUCKING ELECTRICITY WORKING - NO, THEY HAVEN'T CUT YOU OFF, YOU'VE TORN THE WIRES OUT OF THE WALLS. GET YOUR FUCKING WATER RUNNING - NO, THEY HAVEN'T CUT YOU OFF, YOU HAVE DONE SOMETHING RIDICULOUS TO YOUR CISTERN AND PIPES. STOP BREAKING EVERYTHING, STOP SCRATCHING HOLES IN THE WALLS, STOP SCRATCHING WEIRD SHIT ON YOUR DOOR, CLOSE YOUR WINDOWS YOU FUCKING IDIOT BEFORE SOMEONE BREAKS IN, AND OPEN YOUR CURTAINS SO WE CAN AT LEAST SEE IN THE DAY, NOT HIDE IN HERE LIKE HALF-ARSED SUPERSIZED WEREMOLES.'

But all right, I get that some people can never leave the worlds they make, and it's not a choice. I have the choice to meet them there, seems like I've been doing it all my life, and here's what I learned; if you have the ability to enter other people's worlds, think carefully and know why you do it. Don't spend your life pissing in the dark.

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